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Friday, December 11, 2009'

Its all about losing yourself~

Now look
Yes everyone
I know its my fault
I started this
The protagonist was me all this while
If i had kept my mouth shut
With your secrets
If didn't tell the world your feelings
NOTHING would have gone wrong
I'm sorry i confine a little too much
Said some unnecessary details
And cause all this
I really didn't think about it that much
Till this shit happens
And you desperately trying to get your point thru
Into my empty nutshell
Trying make me understand I'm at fault
Yes now i do
I really do
Be it whether I'm angry, sad, not even remotely remorseful...
I GET YOUR EFFING POINT
YES FUCK MY LIFE
I screw it up none lesser than everyone else
I make friends turn against each other
And just left my Gf die emotionally alone
I wasn't even there when she needs me
I'm fucking ugly
I'm fucking stupid
I've a FUCKED UP ANGER
Me being angry DOESN'T mean i don't understand
YOU WHOEVER IS READING THIS
GF's Friend, My cliques, My "Alliance"
WHOEVER THE FUCK YOU ARE
JUDGING ME JUST BY LISTENING TO HER?
You try dating my HER yourself
AND THEN YOU GAIN THE RIGHT TO JUDGE ME

(Anger aside...)
Yes I know i revealed your secrets to the world
Causing all that issues you're having
And destroying one of your most highly regarded
Friendship
And causing them to even turn on you now
I know you hate me...
Hating me for destroying what you trusted
I know you just wanted me to admit my mistake...
I am sorry...
Rowena and Natasha
Please don't blame her
She didn't expect those thoughts to be heard by anyone else except me
She didn't expect to have to deal with this...
And her Bf didn't get it till today
I'm really sorry for everything
You guys go ahead and take sides now
I stand alone for a protagonist needs no allies
He's just an outcast waiting to be judged yet by someone
I'm Messed up
and
I Fuck My Life Up

"~Spare me no mercy~"

blogged @ 12:45 AM