Pathetically scarred memories are the only thing That I'm going to start my brand new year with And as you stare at the mirror Asking "What happened?" Silence is the only things that answered I don't like all this at all... But too bad Its all too late You won't be here anymore I made it that way And you're not gonna forgive I'm shutting myself within again You won't understand Neither do you care anymore ...
"~Hi 2010~"
blogged @ 4:07 PM
Monday, December 28, 2009'
Its all about losing yourself~
Just had my first cosplay experience Always wanted to try it But Not really satisfied due to the turnout of events Nevertheless we made it thru For a moment the pain was nullified... Now its back again Its gonna be another few more rough nights Where are you... I regret...
"~Pathetic Me~"
blogged @ 11:36 PM
Sunday, December 20, 2009'
Its all about losing yourself~
Finally i hear the voice of someone who sees deeper Someone who've been through the worst Her words of advices Really moved me... She told me what everyone didn't
"If you really love her, then don't give up trusting"
"How many chances can you find love someone in this world (which contains so many type of ppl) and you still found her"
She also told me something I've to look for I'll heed your words wisely Thank you Fonnis Thank you...
"~My Dear Ol'friend~"
blogged @ 10:36 PM
Friday, December 18, 2009'
Its all about losing yourself~
I just still love her goddamn much... Why do things have to turn out this way... Why are we like this... Why...
"~Devastated~"
blogged @ 10:00 PM
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Its all about losing yourself~
Nobody realise i still want her Even though of my tough words... Why do i love her so much... Yet she still loves her... Unfair.... So unfair....
"~Karma~"
blogged @ 8:58 PM
Thursday, December 17, 2009'
Its all about losing yourself~
I'm falling into your vision of obscurity I deserve They say our love is a travesty Partially I say we still love each other Deep within Move on I need to move on...
"~Tears~"
blogged @ 9:46 PM
Wednesday, December 16, 2009'
Its all about losing yourself~
I left not because i gave up Not because i didn't love you Not because of anger Its Candy No point explaining yourself anymore Its over Congratulations for losing everything JUST for her I'm done Farewell They were right afterall...
"~It was all a mistake...~"
blogged @ 7:21 PM
Friday, December 11, 2009'
Its all about losing yourself~
Now look Yes everyone I know its my fault I started this The protagonist was me all this while If i had kept my mouth shut With your secrets If didn't tell the world your feelings NOTHING would have gone wrong I'm sorry i confine a little too much Said some unnecessary details And cause all this I really didn't think about it that much Till this shit happens And you desperately trying to get your point thru Into my empty nutshell Trying make me understand I'm at fault Yes now i do I really do Be it whether I'm angry, sad, not even remotely remorseful... I GET YOUR EFFING POINT YES FUCK MY LIFE I screw it up none lesser than everyone else I make friends turn against each other And just left my Gf die emotionally alone I wasn't even there when she needs me I'm fucking ugly I'm fucking stupid I've a FUCKED UP ANGER Me being angry DOESN'T mean i don't understand YOU WHOEVER IS READING THIS GF's Friend, My cliques, My "Alliance" WHOEVER THE FUCK YOU ARE JUDGING ME JUST BY LISTENING TO HER? You try dating my HER yourself AND THEN YOU GAIN THE RIGHT TO JUDGE ME
(Anger aside...) Yes I know i revealed your secrets to the world Causing all that issues you're having And destroying one of your most highly regarded Friendship And causing them to even turn on you now I know you hate me... Hating me for destroying what you trusted I know you just wanted me to admit my mistake... I am sorry... Rowena and Natasha Please don't blame her She didn't expect those thoughts to be heard by anyone else except me She didn't expect to have to deal with this... And her Bf didn't get it till today I'm really sorry for everything You guys go ahead and take sides now I stand alone for a protagonist needs no allies He's just an outcast waiting to be judged yet by someone I'm Messed up and I Fuck My Life Up
"~Spare me no mercy~"
blogged @ 12:45 AM
Tuesday, December 8, 2009'
Its all about losing yourself~
Looking back at all the post i had since July... Just hit me hard once again... Reminded me of everything Had the impulse to give you another chance But fear is still enveloping me... My Nigga is right But my Heart isn't lying as well Reality<--?-->Feelings My cheeks are drenched again as i type... So much pain... Yet so much love...
"~Why...?~"
blogged @ 11:25 PM
Sunday, December 6, 2009'
Its all about losing yourself~
So its gonna end this way You finally decided to leave Good for you At least you're making decision now I understand you won't turn back anymore I hope whoever you decide to be with next Won't hurt you as much as everyone else did I don't deny I still Love you But I'm afraid as well... Take care Baby for this is the last time I Love you Farewell
"~Hopes~'
blogged @ 12:56 PM
Saturday, December 5, 2009'
Its all about losing yourself~
As I Drown...
"~No point getting dry anymore...~"
blogged @ 4:39 AM
Thursday, December 3, 2009'
Its all about losing yourself~
There you are with your perfect way You’ve got that little shine in your eyes To hear one word would make my day But there’s no room for me in your life
Oh you’ve got me down on my knees Oh and in my mind I can see How perfect everything could be But you won’t give us a try
If I could change your mind How would you want me Would you say you need me Cause I need you now
I try to move on but your perfect way Has got this little child asking why But this world keeps spinning As my heart stops beating Is there still no room inside
Oh you’ve got me down on my knees Oh and in my mind I can see How perfect everything could be But you won’t give us a try
If I could change your mind How would you want me Would you say you need me Cause I need you now
If I could change your mind (Please tell me I’m not the only one) (Please help me believe I’m not the only one) If I could change your mind
If I could change your mind How would you want me Would you say you need me Cause I need you now If I could change your mind How would you hold me Would you stay forever Or just leave me here to drown
If I could change your mind (Change your mind) If I could change your mind
"~Change~"
blogged @ 11:09 PM
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Its all about losing yourself~
Can you hear me cry? Can you feel my pain? Living in denial everything's ok The agony is growing I resent and yearn for you How did we end up this way Only you can change all this You make it all better Hurry Before its all too late...
As i drown myself in the bass,
Pounding every sense of mine just to feel alive again,
I have no where to hide or run,
All i can do is dance my fear away,
Take me away or Let the music play...
Vincent
28th May 1988
